It is currently 11:07am on Wednesday, February 22nd, 2017.
I am 11 days away from being 17 years old.
I am roughly 3 months away from becoming a Senior in high school.
And I have no clue what I’m doing with my future.
I feel called to a bunch of good things: working for a pro life organization, caring for girls that are rescued from trafficking, working overseas to bring education and love to those that need it, traveling and doing various mission work projects, ect.
People have been asking me since I was a little girl what I wanted to be when I grew up. My answer has always varied.
For a brief period of time, I wanted to be a chef in Paris that only made Kraft mac-n-cheese.
For another time frame, I wanted to be someone that built churches in impoverished areas.
And in most of my middle school years, I wanted to be a photographer. (I still love photography, and plan to do it for the rest of my life, but not as a profession.)
Once I hit high school, I realized that I actually have to choose something. I gotta pay the bills somehow.
But I wrestled with the thought of going to college. The whole idea didn’t seem right to me. I didn’t have interest in anything that would require a college degree. I just wanted to do mission work for the rest of my life.
However, my parents think realistically, and they told me that college would really be a good option, and that I should pray about it.
So that’s what I’ve been doing since Freshman year. I thought that God would have revealed His life plan for me by now.
But here I am. Completely and utterly confused as to what I should do with my future.
Now, I have come up with a bit of a rough draft of what I want to do. Liberty University offers a degree in special education with a minor in ASL. I could get that and teach kids sign language.
I’m really passionate about loving those that society deems “unloveable.” I really enjoy ASL and I hope to do something with it for the rest of my life.
But will I? *shrug*
The truth is, I’m just trying to find the most effective way to love as many people as I can. That’s what I’m here to do: love.
So right now, as I’m juggling 95 different ideas, I need to remember that God’s got a plan for me. And He will allow me to love people. I must keep praying for His will to be revealed to me.
And while I wait, I will keep loving those around me.
So when people ask me the college question, my answer is simply, “I don’t know.” And the fact that I don’t know is not a bad thing. It means that God has yet to reveal His plan to me.